Thursday, June 21, 2007

Hobbled in Misery (Dontcha love titles! LOL!)

Do you ever question your choices?
Have personal debates about whether your motives and intentions were well thought out?
Do you ever bite off more than you can chew?


I feel yuk lately.

Physically and mentally.
Physically my feet have been hurting like hell for 4 days. And I mean Hell. Walking is somewhere close to imagining what that guy felt like in Misery when Kathy Bates whacks him with a sledge hammer.
Yeah...not pretty.

So I drug myself to the doctor today and she thinks I might have stress fractures. We have been super busy working on the decks, garden (Yep! So excited! My Dad would be so proud!), putting in a new pool liner, and getting ready for Ash's Luau party Friday. I don't know. But I couldn't get in for xrays today. And I have stuff to do to get ready for Ash's party. So next week it is. Until then. I suffer. My choice really. But my kid, she busted her hump the last few weeks of school and we promised her this, so...Priorities. That is my top one.

Though I must admit the realization that in less than 48 hours I will have a small herd of 15/16 year old girls in my midst for 24 hours makes me want to run and hide. LOL!

And my blog...neglected.
And My Life Remembered. I feel really bad about that. I feel like I owe so much and feel like I am spread so thin. I haven't touched an art supply in weeks.

And as bad as I feel...Part of me is really good with it. I always wanted to be the Mom who rat5her get dirty with her kids... And now I do. I think after my cousins death I became more aware of how precious every little moment is.

And although I LOVE the art... If you're not living life, you make no memories and where is the art in that?

So this is my predicament my downfall.

I bite and can't chew.

And that my friends makes my soul heavy with shame.

Off to bed to rest my "Misery"ed feet.


Debbie said...

You are so right about making memories. That is the most important thing! Our lives shoud be our greatests works of art. The rest is just icing on the cake...

lisa said...

If we don't jump right in and live there really isn't anything interesting to journal about anyway. I'm willing to bet that your daughter is your greatest creation.

Rodrigo said...

Oi, achei teu blog pelo google tá bem interessante gostei desse post. Quando der dá uma passada pelo meu blog, é sobre camisetas personalizadas, mostra passo a passo como criar uma camiseta personalizada bem maneira. Até mais.

Flapsi Hapsi said...

Be good to yourself, you should not feel shame. Hugs.

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